Confusion

Matt here..

So upon reading Tom's latest post, I find myself deep in thought regarding the past few days.
Whos up for some stream of consciousness?

So you just want to be friends.. you want to stay close to me, but we can't be together, not like that. Okay, ill deal.. i guess.. but give it some time!Im giving it time! I'm turning people down for christ sake. How can you talk to me the way you do, act the way you do around me.. and expect me to not be affected by it? If you dont wanna be with me, dont flirt! dont cling! dont tell me you love me. I cant handle that.
How can i get over this quicker? Should i indulge myself in my other options? Should i live simply for work, school, and my friends? Should i keep trying as hard as i can?
dear god dont tell me you love me.
ill be seeing you tonight too, though my family will be there.. im still not sure how i'll react. Dinner should be good though.

So on a second note. I'm in a wierd spot. in the past 48 hours, two different people, and a third on the verge of it i feel like, have been.. more open with me than expected. and i havent acted thus far.. should i? i could. How would my conscious feel though?